Exhibit A

Are you wearing Lipgloss?

So the team was all together today! (Rugby boy & Al- & I- & me)

So Al came in super talkative & I- and I were just happy she’s finally open with us.
Rugby boy and I sat together in the back when we drove to the lake.

We got out & went to look for turtles. We split up & took opposite directions. I went with I-. As we were leaving I- was like ‘was she wearing lip gloss?’

I think Al- has a crush on N!

I don’t really mind. He’s been texting me and it’s probably for the best. They have more in common

Like Old Friends…

I won’t bore you with my steps to writing a report on a healthy pond. But one was drying up and there were still Pacific Tree Frog tadpoles and metamorphs swimming around.

I asked my boss & got the go-ahead to move them to a fuller pond. But that had to wait until after lunch.

(I also rescued a bumble bee from drowning. I named him Herbert & he chilled on my sleeve & didn’t sting me!)

So I pull into the office, not expecting rugby boy today because he txted he just got into SFO at like 11.

then…

“Isn’t that N-’s mustang?” 

It was. I was so nervous. I thought he wasn’t coming back until tomorrow! I thought he flaked.

So as I’m hanging up the waders, trying to be chill & he comes out. I was SO afraid things would be awkward or different.

But he gives me a hug & looks me over. He smiles and says I’m all dirty. “What?” “ha your leg!” *points to a smear of mud on my upper thigh.

Well. We chat some more & I- joins us. N- says he’ll be here about as long as I am. Then he’ll be a photographer for a cheer camp.

“CHEER camp!” I repeat while making a face. “I BET you signed up to photo that…”

“What?! No! No! Sierraaaa camp.” & we both laugh

hah nothings changed. He’s still sweet N-. I was afraid I scared him off with all my weird, random phone calls & drunk txts. But he always answered and replied so…

I- was like “I wanted to give you time together, so I watched from the window. He didn’t hug meee.”

I want this to work, tumblrs. But we’ll see. He graduates & then he’s gone for 6 months to help his family on their ranch in Arizona. He’ll be taking over there.

But until then, I’m making cookies & hope he’ll think about including me in his new life after graduation. I’ve been missing him for so long, it’s nice to have him back. But he’ll be gone again soon & neither of us wants for me to be sad so I’ll try to be a little less emotional. But he’s the best. I play with other guys, but I want this one.